The Bookstore Occultist
On our last trip to the B&N, Kat and I took a stroll through the New Age / Self-Transformation isle (publishers will happily sell you tarot cards and witch-kits but they sure don’t want to call it Magick) just to see what was new in the world of the mainstream witch/mage.
I remarked to Kat that I wouldn’t even know where to begin, or what to make out of magick, if this was my entry point. Titles promised me everything from Wicca to Hermeticism, sex magick to boss-witch stylings of a Lean-In era feminism, and even ALIENS LIVING IN THE HOLLOW EARTH
The Fear of the Unreal
“This is all but a dream.”
This statement, with which I would tend to agree and have said myself in various ways, lately has made my blood run cold.
All About Seances
The house is darkened, the blinds shut against the moonlight, a solitary candle burns in the center of the table, illuminating a circle of close-eyed guests. The circle of people ranges in age from younger to older, their hands clasped in determination of deed. Tonight, these gathered hope to pierce the veil between this world and the next. They hope to contact those souls which have departed, and they hope to find answers to the questions which elude them. This is the séance or, at the very least, the way the séance is commonly understood.
Out of Time
When do you feel most “out of time”?
While walking through the woods closest to my home, I often observe the growth, transformation, and passing of flowers and grasses. It’s amazing how quickly the landscape can change — in every season! As milkweed sprouts fluffy white hair and tall white asters blossom in October, I say goodbye to plentiful summer berries and papery green ground cherries.
Meditation and The Master Plan
“Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve.”
― Napoleon Hill
In this section we will begin by setting an intention to learn. In my workshops and events, I often will ask the group to “give themselves permission to have an experience.” We don’t realize the extent to which we block out experiences or new ideas as a matter of reflex, often as the result of childhood instruction, social pressure, or even fear. We internalize scripts that we can’t do something because of what others have told us!
The Deadly Seven
This is an examination of sin. Particularly, the seven deadly sins. Do you know the list by heart? If not, I’ll refresh your memory here:
Lust
Gluttony
Greed
Sloth
Wrath
Envy
Pride
Unlocking Your Symbolic Codex
We are awash in symbolism, bombarded by logos, indoctrinated by metaphors, and linked to perpetuated ancestral cycles by a thread of familial stories. For many of us, we move through life unknowingly unmoored — divorced from our internal selves, distracted by social media, and constantly activated by media organizations which profit off of our fear. We have been taught to look towards solutions, to engage with a system of learning that creates “good workers and consumers”, and either engage with our internal spheres as an abstract idea that probably doesn’t really exist, or a soul that must be nurtured through the withering fruit of Fundamentalism. Current events show us a society that news media often refers to as “polarized”, as if two coherent groups of thinkers are rallying around categorically distinct intellectual poles.
Blaming Our Bodies Pt. 2
What is your body? How do you understand it?
In the “West” today, the most pervasive metaphor for the body is one of a semi-functional, marvelously complicated machine. This concept of our bodies has evolved in tandem with a materialist philosophy that has no interest in the spiritual aspects of reality that challenge strict materialism’s premise — namely, all that is tr
Blaming our Bodies
Why do we blame our bodies so much?
When I was a teenager, I was briefly hospitalized for an infection that had gotten out of control. This incident set into motion a new, fun narrative for myself about my body: it is weak and prone to illness. Without understanding why something that should have been resolved easily instead developed into something so dangerous, I resorted to blaming my body. Questions loomed unanswered in my mind: Why did I not get better on the medicine I was initially given? Why did I develop the infection in the first place when others did not? Why was I so weak?
The Dreaming of St. Cyprian
I only recently re-invigorated my magickal practice with the power of Saint Magick, something that I was hesitant to reconnect with after years of spiritual searching within a Christian framework. And yet, as my magickal practice developed, I found St. Cyprian to embody the weirdness of magickal traditions that I so sorely sought. Today (September 26th) is the feast day of the various St. Cyprians that compose — like a wizarding Voltron — the Iberian St. Cyprian.
Wanting for Solitude
Just be quiet for a moment; be silent.
Something we probably heard many times as children, but not so much as adults. We are not often invited to have moments of quiet solitude, when the only thing we have to do is be noiseless and peaceful. Yes, it's absolutely a privilege to speak, and even more so to speak one's mind. But it's also a privilege to remain silent, to not have to respond quickly and constantly or at all. And being entirely absent from the conversation is unthinkable - something that seems akin to not existing at all.
The Foundation of Well-Executed Magick
As I was preparing to write the final part of my “Magick Beyond the Magick” series, I realized that to properly address the issue of identity in magick — and witchcraft as a non-operative magickal identity — I should clarify what I mean by “good praxis” and “well-executed magick”. In so doing, I found that what really seems to define “good praxis” is rooted in that old magickal monolith — daily meditation. Meditation is the foundation of all effective magickal workings; it is essential for having a coherent metaphysics and vital for the success of the blossoming online witch-movement.
Does Desire Make You Feel Bad?
There’s a fine line between desire and discontentment.
For someone who has seen the results of persistent dissatisfaction with one’s life from an early age, I’ve struggled with embracing my own desires. Too often my wants and hopes were tethered to feelings of disappointment, sometimes even guilt, that my goals were not quickly obtained in the “here and now”, the material plane. Growing up in a family that was continually trying to become more financially stable and raise us all to a higher class, I witnessed (and maybe internalized) a lot of struggle.
Don't Give Up On Yourself
I believe that what we desire is not only possible, that it is likely, and we can create it if we truly desire. For the past few years I have been dogged by the constant self doubt that what I do will lead to the life of my dreams. I have often wondered, when the going gets tough and it feels like I should simply surrender, whether or not it makes more sense to let go and do something “easier.”
Anti-Community Values
I am a member of several Facebook (Meta) communities; and while some groups are fantastic, constant sources of interesting esoteric knowledge and anthropological findings on occult practices, other groups are truly nightmare fuel. I won’t name names because I don’t think I have to. Likely this is a universal truth that you experience regularly as well (if not, my sincere congratulations).
My particular issue with some groups is usually not the controversial opinions, persistent ignorance on particular topics, or questions that seem to be repeated ad nauseam; instead my pain point posts are poorly written, lengthy personal essays on occult subjects that might otherwise be interesting if it were not written by that particular practitioner.
Each time I encounter a post like this I feel a sense of disappointment and wonder “why am I still in this community?” And then I scroll on.
The Magick Beyond the "Magick" Part 2 of 3
In the first part of this series, we turned our eyes to the world of manifestation in magick and the ways in which the conversation around manifestation has been disconnected from the value of that same practice. Today we are going to address the idea of aesthetics in magick. What are the values of embodying an aesthetic to facilitate a magickal working? Is aesthetic a spell or working in itself? And, how does one engage with an aesthetic that far surpasses the end goal of an Instagram worthy photo or an “immersive” TikTok, or the ego gratification of the novice practitioner?
The Numinous Retreat Made Me Do It!
I got bangs a few days ago, and I joked with my hairdresser that I didn't even have to go through a breakup in order to change my hairstyle drastically. (She laughed, but didn’t say much - I mean, what do you even say to something like that?)
But after stepping out of the salon and thinking on this statement a bit more, I reconsider. Maybe I have gone through a kind of a breakup…
The Magick Behind the "Magick"
There is a deeper magick underneath the magick.
One of the primary problems facing magick today is the profoundly materialist goal-setting around for what (and whom) magick is useful. When #witchtok and #witchesofinstagram focus solely on manifestation, aesthetics, and identity, a deeper purpose of magick - the greatness of the great work - is lost, severed from the realities of what magick can truly offer.
Violence, Witchcraft, Desire, & Saving Ourselves
“We live in a necessarily violent world,” some say. “Humans cannot truly live nonviolently.”
I find that hard to accept, hard to stomach, even while I understand that perspective. As an occultist, I think about the hidden meanings of things, perspective shifting when it is useful. I understand that even if I don’t want to accept something like this, it is a powerful statement and a powerful narrative that shapes our world. Worlds are built on stories and ideas just like these. So, let’s explore the question of violence.
Living as a Wizard in 2022
What thoughts does the word “Wizard” conjure in the mind?
Blue, sparkly robes adorned with silver stars and moons? Gandalf the Grey, with his drooping hat, snow white beard, and long pipe? Or, perhaps a boy wizard with unruly black hair, circular glasses and a curious scar?